And here i am.. sitting at the corner of my cubicle, surrounded with macik cleaner here and there busy cleaning the other's workstation. Obviously, they just have to pass by me as i am currently still fully utilizing my space ignoring their existence. sorry macik..not that i am being rude. But i am actually now crying...
It was only just because a phone call which at first i hesitated to answer. I dont hv the gut to listen to the voice caller. Simply because it was mak. :(
Dear mak, i love you. Wherever i am now, you are close to my heart. Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Thursday, November 3, 2011
The fight that will never ends
Assalamualaikum..
I had a fight last Tuesday with abang. It all because i was too emotional on his unavailability to come and spent some time with me..
last time we met was Sunday.Its been 4 days now.
monday:
he went to fetch his papa and balik lambat around 9.30 baru sampai maluri. at that time i was too tired and decided not to go out.
tuesday:
The fight. I helped aina for her workshop in Maya and went back by taxi since its raining heavily that day. Reached home at 7pm. there were lots of extra food from the hotel so i packed some for him. I waited for him until 10.40pm. My patience had reach it's limit. I was too mad at that time. He called many times, but didnt pick up any of his calls. merajuk. marah. geram. all in one! Then he started to maki hamun me. that is the saddest part. lantak laa...
Wednesday:
all day long at office. settling few other things that is pending since last week. Felt a bit empty. Started to think of abang. but,still couldn't forgive what he said to me. Too much! Way too much! I cant accept. I made myself busy by doing works composedly. At 10, light had already switched off and i called it a day without even take my shower.
Thursday:
and now, it's been 3 consecutive days of not meeting him. i am no longer can hide my feelings. I miss abang.. yes.. i miss abang badly. But i know, if i just take the sentence and raise the white flag, abang will totally blame me for what had happened. Abang wont even think from my side, from my angle, from my shoe! Maybe it's best for me to keep silence. maybe its time for cooling period. If i still cant accept abang's family, maybe i should call of the relationship. I love abang. but i can't accept abang's family. I just cant.
I had a fight last Tuesday with abang. It all because i was too emotional on his unavailability to come and spent some time with me..
last time we met was Sunday.Its been 4 days now.
monday:
he went to fetch his papa and balik lambat around 9.30 baru sampai maluri. at that time i was too tired and decided not to go out.
tuesday:
The fight. I helped aina for her workshop in Maya and went back by taxi since its raining heavily that day. Reached home at 7pm. there were lots of extra food from the hotel so i packed some for him. I waited for him until 10.40pm. My patience had reach it's limit. I was too mad at that time. He called many times, but didnt pick up any of his calls. merajuk. marah. geram. all in one! Then he started to maki hamun me. that is the saddest part. lantak laa...
Wednesday:
all day long at office. settling few other things that is pending since last week. Felt a bit empty. Started to think of abang. but,still couldn't forgive what he said to me. Too much! Way too much! I cant accept. I made myself busy by doing works composedly. At 10, light had already switched off and i called it a day without even take my shower.
Thursday:
and now, it's been 3 consecutive days of not meeting him. i am no longer can hide my feelings. I miss abang.. yes.. i miss abang badly. But i know, if i just take the sentence and raise the white flag, abang will totally blame me for what had happened. Abang wont even think from my side, from my angle, from my shoe! Maybe it's best for me to keep silence. maybe its time for cooling period. If i still cant accept abang's family, maybe i should call of the relationship. I love abang. but i can't accept abang's family. I just cant.
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