Lepaskan dia pergi

Redha dan let go

Kk

InsyaAllah.. I'll be back to the land below the wind..mohon semua doakan yang terbaik..

My super awesome raya trip

Salam Ramadhan..

Tba2 terasa sangat sedih sebab ramadhan sudah hampir meninggalkan kita.. Mungkin ramadhan akan datang, akan meraikannya di tanah borneo.. Bukan lagi di malaya.. Harap sahabat doakan yang terbaik..

My raya trip started yeaterday, as early as 4pm.. Haha.. Was super duper sleepy in the office and decided to cabut early since i came early in the morning.. Flight was at 8pm and had my sungkai at the waiting gate..

The flight is super kewl..of all 8years of domestic flying exp, yest was my very first time experiencing inflight entertainment tv.. Selalunya international flite ja.. Owh-some aite..

Sampai kk, a very good friend of mine , denku fetched me and tumpang her house.. Thnks denk!

N now, am currently here waiting fir my next flite trip to cont my journey of balik kampung.. Moga d permudahkan segalanya.

Balikk kampungg.. Owowoh balik kampung...

Xoxo

Mango

Salam ramadhan..

RM13 untuk 2 bijik mangga. What??!! Yes.. Tipah tertipu.. Ternyata helah marketing dengan memaparkan harga per gram daripada per kilo nyata nya berkesan.. Terkena dekat batang hidung sendri..

Nah.. Maka 2 bijik mangga ini bakal menjadi santapan malam ku.. Untuk 2 hari mungkin? 13 ringgit terlalu mahal buat ku..

Charity it is

Salam Penghulu Hari,

Healthy food tips for more stamina.

1.       No sodas

2.       Less sugar

3.       Consistently drink lots of water

4.       More Fiber = more veggies & fruit

5.       Stay away from fried food (oil based food)

6.       Not more from 1 egg/day

Till this entry is written. I’ve shredded 3 kilos in a month. It is actually achievable when you are determined enough to do something. As in my case, it is started with a fever. I was down by fever early last month and coincidentally it was during one fine weekend. If only it was on weekdays, I’d surely go to clinic for prescription. Unfortunately, it was on Saturday and I don’t wanna lose my precious weekend by lying on my bed shivering and whining on the runny nose and sick body. So I took a very heavy step to put on my running shoes and went to gym to sweat myself.

The first run was 3km of hell for me. But, I felt good and healthier. I sweat a lot. But my knees hurt. But… 3km was an achievement. I satisfied, I wanted to do more, I forgot about my pain, and I challenged myself. Until I recalled, my long lost “Goals-in-life-wish-list” which Faerah and I did last couple of years back when I was still working with DHI. 

Yes. It is the marathon! Faerah already did it last year (2011) in KL Standard Chartered Marathon.

And today, I’ve successfully registered for a charity run Be A Runner, Be A Giver (BAGBAR) which is falls exactly on my birthday! 23^rd September it is. J yeay!

3months remaining for trainings and I am aiming for first 10^th finisher! Ganbatte!

Love is..

Salam Nisfu Syaaban to all..

Love is... me n him

Running away is not the solution but it does feel good

Assalamualaikum,

It's been a while tho. Lucky me, alhamdulillah.. i can still breath on today's beautiful day. Thank you Allah. for giving me another time and chance untuk bertaubat dan memanjatkan syukur padaMu.

Okeh. As the title reads. panjang kan.. running away is indeeed is not a solution. sooner or later the truth will surely be revealed. thats why people always say:

Running is not a solution, it's only delaying.. i repeaet DELAYING the truth

which in my case the truth has finally revealed and it somehow cause me some lot of trouble. But, todays' post is not meant for the earlier part of running. it is for the later part :

"... but it does feel good.."  

small steps could lead to a bigger achievement . Even babies need to crawl first before successfully standing on both of their legs..

indeed, it feels good.

My running shoes : i have long not worn them for months.. MONTHS!
My tracksuit         : also not worn for quite some  time, i din even realize since when does the size shrink-ed??
My loose shirt      : most of them are not wearable due to extra pounds and extra bummy pack and mummy-    tummy-look-a-like stomach.

oh-my-tummy-&-bummy.. 

since when does these two part of my body grew bigger and doubled their size?? since when????????

thanks for the extra pounds, now i have less than half of my wardrobe of wearable clothes!!!

gotta start running and keep the momentum.. and its not about the desire to look slimmy thin like a model figure tho, it's more towards a healthy body and peace of mind. 

y peace of mind? 

so that i dont have to worry bout my unfitted jeans, 

dont have to worry if people will mistreated me as one pregnant lady in the train and try to be nice offering me a seat. 

oh my fat!!!! go away... fuh.. fuhhhhh.. if only shredding the extra pounds would be as simple as whistling to the wind! which not even 1 calorie even burnt! 


till then,

May the force be with me, in achieving  my ideal weight.
xoxo

 

The pain was no joke!

Last Friday I went for oral surgery. Which I myself didn’t predict that to happen. It all started last Wednesday when I went to the dentist to cabut gigi; my upper geraham that is. So the doctor checked and told me that the exraction won’t be as the usual way, but through surgery instead. So I firmed up my decision and kuatkan semangat to have the surgery done.

Pejam celik pejam celik.. Friday had finally come. Ern accompanied me that day since her office hour starts at 1.00 pm.  9 am we went for breakfast at warung borak2 just the opposite road from the clinic. Then, after the breakfast, we went to the dentist and at that time it was still early and no other patient was there. The staffs were still busy cleaning toilet and etc.

So first.. I went to toilet to brush my teeth and yak yak.. ya lahh.. biasalah.. Butterfly in stomach..nnt once it started cannot go to the loo sudah. And of course must clean my teeth first before the doctor start digging all her utensils in my mouth.

The anesthetic

3 injections for the anesthetic and it successfully made my mouth numb. I cried during the first injection.

I was scared to death that I hold the kakak’s hand tightly.. after all it just only the beginning. After numb, they x-ray my teeth first before starting the surgery. At this point of time, I was really scared that I couldn’t help but crying and asked the doctor whether I can hold ern’s hands during the operation. The doctor is so nice that she let ern in and asked me to be tough.

The cutting

I could tell that it had already started the moment she asked me to shake my legs and breath. Cause I can feel the blood coming out but there was indeed no pain. i don’t know how to best describe my feeling but the experience was horrible. I cried again during the operation. Not that I was in pain, but knowing the fact that they were actually cutting off your gum was really made me scared. Enough by just hearing the sounds of the equipment I guess.

The operation went well and the climax was when I almost swallowed my own teeth. I could tell that they were actually trying to push my teeth out since both kakak n doctor were at the same time asked me to shake my legs again and breathe harder. Then the tooth fall off.. I remember I heard the doctor said, jangan tertelan gigi.. and she asked me to bend over and said.. okay.. operation done.. and they asked me to kumur all the darah..

The stitches.

I’ve never expected that they will jahit the gum and was shocked when the doctor asked me to lie down again. Then she started sewing my gum like a sewing machine. 6 stitches and done.. before it’s over they gv me pills and tampal kapas to avoid bleeding. The experience was really horrible and will not forget it the rest of my life.. the last place I want to go is the dentist.

Life Unexpected

I once had a great life before. I had a great job, great surroundings. But that was a year back ago. As for present: life has been miserable for me.

I love talking bout my past life. It was pretty rough in the beginning but Alhamdulillah, there’re people who truly sincere to help me settled down and begun my first career stage in kk. They are:

1)      The first one who helped me out the moment I touchdown in kk was: my super great senior- Ihsan 

He fetched me at the airport and sent me to Mona’s house in Sepanggar. He helped me search for some perfect locations to rent.

My rent house in University Apartment was all his effort. He was the one who called and arranged for it. And it is way better than any other places. Thanks Ihsan!

2)      She who sincerely let me stay in her room for few months: my awesome old-skool friend-Ramona Jahpar

I graduated in June, coming back home in July. Started my work on 2^nd Aug. the timeframe was a lil bit tight for me to find a place to stay. Out of many other friends, she was the only one who agreed to “tumpang” me in her room. We stayed there for almost 2 months until Ihsan found the house in UA.

3)      The kind hearted & amazing woman: Kak Shidah

When we first moved in, it was the ramadhan eve. Without even knowing us, she let us do the groceries shopping with her that night. Still remember we went to giant 1borneo to buy some basic stuff for sahur and any other groceries. Thanks a lot kak shida.. u re really a kind woman.

She also treated me as one of her friends. From her, I’ve known kak Su who happened to be my friend’s sister. We went to island, shopping, lepak2, makan2, and even beraya to her boss’s house during festive season.

She was also the person who listens to my problem whenever I feel down and stress with work or life. Still remember that night when she asked me to teman her to withdraw cash at warisan square. We went for a heavy supper afterwards at burger king and I told her bout the work stress I had that time, peer pressure, and work load I had, and the most remarkable advice that I’ll not forget for the rest of my life is:

                                                “Trust is built, not gained”

She is really one great person! Kak Shidah, I hope you are having a great life and may Allah bless and shower you with everlasting happiness.

4)      My super awesome mentee-senior: Po

He who happened to live the opposite block always lent me a hand whenever I need one. He sometimes fetched me back from work for the first few weeks before dad sent my car to kk. When I was car-less, Po and Ihsan always helped me in whatever situation they were. Thanks a lot guys! You both are the best!

Po also always listens to my problem. He was really helpful back those days. And I bet he is still indeed helpful these days too. He was really kind to some extent; he will call me and ask do I need a ride since he’s going to 1B. It was really thoughtful of you!

5)      My DHI colleagues:

Kak jun : she who treated me as one of her sisters. (walaupun she is actually the youngest). She knows me by heart that I am  a very sensitive person and understands and advices me well when it comes to problems.

Faerah: the other female colleague who always helped me with work. Help me study new things, let me do help her in plotting. And she is really a talkative enthusiastic friend I have. She sometimes sent me home whenever I stayed back late at office.

I love my job back then. I never felt it was such a burden even there was one time my workload caused me felt like on the verge of breaking down.  Sometimes,  when there were so much work, when I can’t resolve things, when I had to re-do it all over again simply because of one silly mistake:  I would still can manage and handle the stress cause I was surrounded by all helpful friends. There was Jack, who is really efficient and passionate in teaching, there was also Faerah who patiently taught me how-to step-by-step do the simulation, there was Caroline: who expertly analyzed and found out what mistake that I did for that particular failure (it may sometimes simply because me punched in the different value of friction).

And I willingly stayed back up to 8pm (8 was my record) to resolve the problem. I always among the top 3 persons who comes early to office. The first one always Michelle the office manager, Yvonne, and sometimes Kak Jun. the sequence might jumble among us but the early comers in our section was always me. Simply because, I love my job and I know that I’ll learn about new things every day.

Owh.. how I miss my life back then. A perfect job, a convenient rent-house, a car that is always be my “kaki”, awesome friends who always support and help me, a great boss to lead me in work and a super loveable company that had given me the opportunity to feel the great experience to be able to do something that I love the most, do something that is my true passion and the not-typical-malaysian company working environment.

Thank you Allah for the memories and chance you gave me in 2010.  May all the hurdles and challenges I am experiencing now can lead me to a better way of life, it may not be now but someday insyaAllah. 

january

Ianya mengambil masa dan semangat yang telus untuk mengarahkan jari-jemari ini untuk berbicara d entri baru ini.

AL-KISAHNYA,
Baru sahaja balik dari 9hari cuti yang telah dimanfaatkan bersama2 keluarga tercinta..

it took me almost 10 mins to type those phrase above. huh.. looking, searching for a suitable words..

all-in-all it was a blissful and wonderful holidays at home. thanks mom for cooking my favorite food along my stay at home.. u knew it by heart even i din exactly tell u the food that  i'd been craving for at kl.

Thanks dad for trusting me, letting me go jalan-jalan with my mom & bro..  for giving US permission to watch movie together.  for letting me drive sis-new-4WD-car  during our long-distance journey that day. am now your driver, it is my pleasure that you enjoy sitting at the passenger sit rather than having to drive the car by yourself. It's a great honour for me.

thanks bob, for your kind udnerstanding. sorry for being such a lazy-bum sister. thanks for doing all the chores and let me rest all day (not to mention, wake up late in the morning)


i miss home so much.. yesterday was such a  gloomy and sad day to me. mom suddenly came up and gave me her sarong.. with tears running down her cheeck, she kissed me and said,

     "ambik lah nak kain mak ni, kalau ko rindu mak ko cium2 la kain ni"

T_______________________________________________________T

cant continue anymore. enuf said i guess..

i miss home.

2012

ada apa dengan 2012?

bad beginning. gaduh. break. mesej mak dia. mak dia call cousin. adi? = senyap.