The morning tears

Salam.

Always expect the unexpected.

Currently is sooo moody and down gila. it all started with an e-mail from SKGAdvisor saying that i was not supposed to circulate the e-mail to all fraternity and at the same time cc-ing to the external vendors.

"Dear Azlina,

I do not think it is appropriate that SKG19  is promoting an external course unless we are confident that such courses are well worth it for our staff. The other thing is that if we think strongly of the training (after consultation with the relevant experts), we should do so without copying the mail to the organizers. After this, each of the individuals below will get a bombardment of emails on programs from this organizer.

Please exercise caution in similar promotion for the future.

Regards,

Roseman"

and my boss replied:

"Dear Azlina

Please discuss with me."

Those e-mail were received at 8.45 am. And the best part is, that was the time  I was about to start my day.

Aku pun pegi la jumpa boss, baca Bismillah sebanyak and sesempat yg mungkin masa pergi menapak ke workstation boss. Reason wise: Bismilah ni klu diamalkan dan dibaca sebanyak 40kali di hadapan musuh boleh melembutkan hatinya, insyaAllah.

Then, pegi jumpa, my Boss pun takde la marah sangat, but he gave me some advice je la and kebetulan dia time tu tgh rushing nk pegi meeting kak Hana kat DAYABUMI so jumpa dia kejap je la tadi. 

unexpectedly, masa nk balik ke my cubicle tu, i feel so down and sedih. tears were rolling down my cheeks and i felt so disappointed. Being me is not easy.. i telll youuuu!  maybe sebab, ak baru je nk bangun balik dari my undeniably terrible work attitude and baru je nak nampak macam ak tak delay works sebab semlm vendor tu call, semalam gak ak hantar kat fraternity<-- bukan kah efficient kalau mcm tu???

Tp malangnya.. the things that i expected to return out to be good happened the other way around. ntah la, rimas la tiap kali nk buat benda je kena diskass dulu ngan boss. dah la boss bukan jaga ak sorang je.. ntahh laa.... 

dan itu lah kesahnye the morning tears tu.... duduk kat meja, bukak e-mail terus buat archive e-mail yg melambak2 kat inbox. sambil tu terfikir pulak nk amik EL or MC yg penting taknak duduk kat meja and mengahadap keje. Aigooooooooo.. ya Allahh.. tabahkan lah hati hamba Mu ini..... 

fikir punya fikir, there's no point pun ak nk down lebih, mungkin ni ujian dari Allah untuk ku. Nak tgk whether ak istiqamah ke tak, whether ak betul2 percaya ke tak kat DIA. Ya Allah, ya Mutakabbir... aku terima dugaan Mu hari ni ya Allah, ku berdoa agar ada hikmah disebalik kejadian itu. 

harap2 ak boleh bertahan sampai ke petang.. sharp pkol 5 ----> BALIK! few more hours je lagi lina!! few more hours!! 

ya Allah.. ya Tuhan ku, pada Mu ak bergantung harap, pada Mu ak mengadu. Tabahkan hati ku dalam setiap dugaan Mu ya Allah, ak percaya bahwa Engkau tidak akan menguji hambaMu atas sesuatu yang tak termampu olehnya. semoga dugaan Mu inin menjadikan ak lebih tabah dan cekal dalam mengahadapi ujianMu. 

Amiinnn...