Pinky-promise that is definitely not pinky.

Assalamualaikum..

piles of unfolded laundries

Welcome to my room!

 This pic was taken last Wednesday where i spent almost 3hours folding my 2-weeks-laundries and tidying up my closet. I was supposed to blog my wed-deepavali-hol before weekend approach. Unfortunately,my workload is as many as the piles of my laundries! There you go... so lets just forget and look forward. 

 I am sitting here in front of the TV in the middle of the living room, all alone and almost die of boredom, not knowing what to do.  Again, things planned are not running as it suppose to. Yesterday, my friend and i planned to go to office today to finish up some pending works to meet our KPI. yeahh.. i know it sounds lamee... me myself not really into this KPI thing coz i know, no matter how determine i am to close my KPI i will be in bottom list and the possibility of getting M3 is very high for me!. in case you do not know, that's how PETRONAS working environment. The freshies are always a good victim for the M3 quota in the dept. Okeh, back to topic, i woke up early and get myself ready for our first-ever morning breakfast with abang. IMPRESSED! :) he managed to pick me up at 7.30 am.. that's the earliest time I've ever met him in history. ngeee... Abang actually suggested us to watch movie this noon but due to promise made earlier with my friend, i rejected the idea. Unfortunatelyyy... janji tinggal janji.. i fell asleep. and she entered my room, all dressed up and ready to go, and say " aku tak jadi pegi ofis, ak nk buat keje kat luar, jauh sikit la, tempat yg ada internet laju, nak ikut tak?? " what should i answer??? should i say " yes, i do want to join you but you need to wait for to get myself ready" or "no thanks, its ok" .. instead, i asked

 "where to?" 

"The curve" she replied.

uh humm.. there you go, i know that she's going out with her bf. Else, she ain't go there all alone on this wonderful-sunny day morning . So i shook my head and said,

"Nah. Its ok..just go" 

Disappointed with her. But what should i say? I am just trying to keep my promise but obviously people seldom do the same to me. 

I always try to make others happy, but they are actually definitely did not even think of me.

 I always try to satisfy my friend, even if i had to do something I don't want to, i'll just keep it to myself and say, "OK, we'll do it" "OK, I'll go with u" "OK, count me in"

Do i deserve to be treated this way?? hurmm.. i think its time to be fair to myself. Will do something on my own preferences, stick to my own plan and learn to say "NO". 

Friends are worth to be kept only if they know how to appreciate you! 

me all alone